Butterfly:2005, 2010

(1st) above, butterfly in 2010 April

(2nd) above, butterfly in 2005 April
I have no idea that this would be 5 years long.

The second photo about butterfly was taken in Yangmingshan in 2005 April.
That time I was still a sunny girl.
I loved nature, and I spent most of my leisure time in the mountain.
I was not a material girl.

While, everything changed in 2006 May.
My knees.
I couldn't go back to mountain.
I didn't want to take photo any more.

Now, 2010 April, I took some nice photo of butterfly.
The first photo about butterfly...................
The butterfly was beautiful.

I was about to cry.
It's been 5 years.

I may need to get my knees better so that I can go back to mountain to take more photos.

I have to.

Competent Leader?

This is my second year in TM, and this CL certificate really means a lot to me.

The true meaning of getting the CC and CL in the second year of joining TM,

is to use these skills to change my life, my attitude, and everything.

I almost cried when I finished my last CL requirement in Mar 29.

That's something for me.

I need to use these skills to fix my problem.

That's true CC and CL.

Everyday live practice is much more important.

Below is my CL project matrix record:
Project #
　
Date
Clubs (FJU TMC,Linkou TMC, Legend TMC, Legacy TMC,LHU TMC, NCU TMC )
1
Listening and Leadership
2009/12/5
2
Critical Thinking
2009/8/25
3
Giving Feedback
2009/10/21
4
Time Management
2009/10/18
5
Planning and Implementation
2009/12/5
6
Organizing and Delegating
2009/5/22
7
Developing Your Facilitation Skills
2009/9/5
8
Motivating People
2010/3/29
9
Mentoring
2009/1/5
10
Team Building
2010/3/26

I may have opened my "I can't" box

[sign]

I may have opened my "I can't box" again.

These days were not easy for me.

Though I lived with my knees, sometimes, they still talked to me:

"No, Sandy. You can't go to Taichung to see the Spring Conference.

No, you can't go to ......."

I was kind of forget when was the last time I had to give up something because of my knees.

Recently, my knees were better, and I got good friends to help me.

Plus, I was really busy.

When I started to take photo recently, I recalled my life "the normal one."

I did want to go back to my life.

The reason that catch me to FJU, would be also the reason for me to leave FJU.

Thesis.

I shouldn't be distracted.

I love TM, but, I start to look at the disadvantages of it.

My belief toward it "changed," especially with Distinguished Club Program.

I don't want to pretend it's my duty, I don't like it.

Just this time, so hard to take it.

That's why I open my "I can't box"

Relief, finally

終於，

從近兩個月的忙亂，

冷靜下來，

比賽告一段落。

我的確是在測試自己的能耐，

從十月2009到三月2010，

我希望做到我想要做的事，

但真的，

短期之內做不到。

I'd like to get power from a group of people.

Then, the "you can do it box" just "come out" in the past 6 months.

I was so touched....

「毅力」，真的很難鍛鍊，

每次要放棄的時候，

我也很難過 ...........

實在是不能容許自己，

每次都走到90分的地方，

還看不到終點時，

就.....................受不了

放棄了.........

最近，

我放在 "I can't "box的信，

已經越來越少了。

啊～現在是安靜的星期一午餐時間，

等一下要開始趕報告了。

加油！Sandy

My Chinese New Year: my grandfather

I seldom went back to Nantou to see my 92-years-old grand father.
Just 2 or 3 times per year.

This Chinese New Year, we spent 3 days with him.

I felt sad for him.

Aging effected his life tremendously, hearing, chewing (teeth), heart, stomach, etc.
My grandfather couldn't do something.

Yet, he could do some other things I couldn't:
He lived a simple life; he lived in a house; he enjoyed the fresh air, and etc.

I knew what I do right now would influence my lives in the future:
life style, job, health condition, spouse, kids, and etc.

The weather was becoming cold when I was back to Taipei.
Sure, my knees were “kind of stiff.”

………………………..

I can't feel sad for myself.

I need to be responsible for what I have done in the past; I have to be responsible for myself in the future.

I need to get my mater thesis done by June, 2010, and get my knees better this year.

「沒電的」一月生活

咳～

一月還沒結束，
我就已經有「沒力」的感覺

休息的這一個禮拜，
那種「在心裡的累」的感覺，
還是揮之不去，

我突然覺得，
前半年，
真的是「忙、亂」

我玩得很開心
但是，
也會想「躲起來」

我11月才對自己說
「I need a break, not to break a relationship」

結果，
現在，
又對小事發脾氣

..............................

Sorry,sorry

這禮拜回家，
去看了阿姨和他們一家人，

Oh my god,
我好朋友，
居然，
快生了
.........................

complicated feelings

開心的珊蒂，妳給我回來

太累就可以亂發脾氣嗎？

I have felt "dizzy" for couple of days.
It last from Jan 14 to Jan 19,2010.


I was extremely worried that I might just come back the time “I have to lie in bed for 3 weeks, and everything is going to ‘suspended.’ Just like Dec 2008 to Jan 2009. ”

Luckily, now I am OK.