Beach in autumn

Beach (Tauyuan, Tai-yuan)

It's been a while that I haven't been to my hometown's beach.

This weekend, I went to see the beach.

I took some photos, there.

I saw the kids running, playing with the sand, and playing with the "water."

I saw the parents stay with the kids, holding their hands (some little kids,) and playing the sand with their kids.

 

family

The overall atmosphere is warm, relax, and comfortable.

WoW......

I took off my shoes, and walked in the sand.

I walked toward the seashore to take more photos.

The sky was beautiful, very blue.

The sea was beautiful, and it's blue as well. It reflects the sky.

sea and sky

Lots of people were fishing. (I didn't know why)

Some kids were "scrawling" (塗鴉) on the sand.

And I didn't know why I started to "draw" on the  sand, too.

.......

my painting on the sand

  

Haha, I couldn’t really draw, whatever, it's fun.

I didn't want add "lesson" in this.

I was happy I found my own time, recently.

I like it.

第一次 (1)

小女孩第一次摸狗

之前拍到一個小女孩摸小狗的畫面

讓我想了很久

「傳承」

兩歲大的小女孩

有點膽小、害羞

還不是很懂這個世界在幹嘛的年紀

很撒嬌地坐在爸爸的腿上

爸爸一邊抱著小女孩

一邊指著這個鳥、松鼠、狗啊 在聊天

很溫馨的畫面

我和朋友恰好帶了小狗和相機過去

我很喜歡小孩

一下子就和父女兩人聊起來了

因為小狗很好動

小女孩一下子就......「快哭」

一直想走開

但是 我們大人

一直說：

「不會啊！小狗很可愛，要不要摸一下？」

小女孩還在爸爸的懷裡

雙手被爸爸握著

一起去「摸」狗

我的朋友則是把小狗的臉往小女孩手裡送

然後 就有這張照片了

.......

四隻手 兩張臉

第一次......接觸

大手拉小手

一起完成原先「害怕的任務」

是大人的手 拉著小孩的手

一邊說不要怕

試試看

我看到的是.......傳承

薪火相傳

上一代的智慧 傳給新的一代

.........

---------

生命中 有很多第一次：

第一次下水學游泳.......怕

第一次上台演講.....怕

第一次當背包客去琉球......怕

第一次跟老闆談離職.........怕

第一次 ............怕

事後去看才知道

其實 這些東西都不可怕

做過了 就覺得還好

所以

就算害怕 還是要繼續下去

繼續「第一次」

把我的經驗「傳承」下去

三峽大豹溪. 呼吸

三峽

前兩個禮拜去三峽大豹溪，

拍了很多照片

很多好漂亮的照片

我看了都覺得：

奇怪！山裡面怎麼那麼漂亮？

過去的這一年，假日我在忙什麼？

TM, 論文 就有得我忙了

但是，我並沒有好好的留時間給自己

等我停在溪流旁邊，

我躺了下來，看著天空

突然覺得：

我有在呼吸，空氣很乾淨、很多鳥叫聲

非常的舒服

[FJU] energetic Janet in contest season

FJU TMC Janet really wants it: she wants to win in FJU TMC in-house humorous speech "very much."

As far as I know, she visited lots of TMCs in Taipei in summer vacation.

YWCA, IMA, MOFA, Legacy, and etc...

Not only visited them, she gave speeches there, including being the target speaker for some clubs' in-house evaluation contest.

She received lots of feedback from the evaluators and judges.

Within a limited of time, she has learned a lot, and improved “A LOT.”

The way she "improves" surprises me.

I can feel "Janet really wants to win."

I can see from her eyes, full of passion and desire.

I .............respect her.

As a senior TM, I lose my "heart" for speech for a period of time.

She makes me to witness the essence of TM.

Janet is awesome.

Also, thanks all the members who have helped Janet on the way to the in-house contest.

THANKS!

IMA, Aug 5 meeting

IMA, Sept 2 in-house

FJU, Sept 17 in-house

IMA, Sept 2 in-house contestants and Janet

Listening

I realized that I might not be good at listening.

I realized that my friends might not be good listening.

I realized that listening itself is truly "silent but attractive," and itself is a good deed.

I find I tend to talk to people what to do.

I find people tend to tell me what to do.

Not listening.

I find that miscommunication itself comes from "people talk too much, instead of listening to each other."

None want to be back off.

None.

True essence of listening would build the trust among people, thus, they would trust each other. 

It gives power to both parts: listeners and speakers.

Listeners absorb (the sorrow), and speakers get heal.

In the past, I didn't listen to my friends, parents, and bosses.

My friends, parents, and bosses didn't listen to me, either.

Then, the conflicts came.

I used to become "blind" to the conflicts, yet, after Toastmasters training (and age), I know I have to solve the problems.

Listen.

Listen to people.

Listen to my heart.

Talk.

Talk to people.

Speak my minds.

 Among all, of course, still need to be careful, otherwise, there is rumor going on.

 Listening is powerful.

訓練

這兩天4、5點時去輔大操場看別人運動： 
有國中田徑隊集訓、中學棒球隊集訓、還有幼稚園足球隊（集訓或是夏令營吧！） 
太陽還很大的狀況下，他們還是很努力在練習， 
佩服！佩服！ 
因為最開始拍照，我特別注意他們的表情： 
眼神很堅定的在承受著練習：重量訓練、接棒、踢球、頂球 ........ 
很專注 

我喜歡運動，特別球類運動，排球、桌球。 
因為只要追著球跑，不用想太多。 

這幾年腳受傷，被迫只能游泳， 
一個我覺得很無聊的運動：一直在水裡，沒有「球」可以追。 

但是，我碰到一個很好的教練：他總是讓我達到120分， 
不斷的練習、變得更強、更快、更厲害 

過程是痛苦的，但是可以變得更強。 

到今天為止，我終於「ㄍ一ㄥ」到一年不用柺杖 
雖然中間有「ㄅ一ㄚ ㄎㄤ」幾次 
但是，我知道如何復健： 
一個我不太喜歡的運動：單調、重複性高 

但是，我看到別人「眼神很堅定的在承受著練習」 
我就會安靜下來 

訓練，就會變得更強。 

竹圍海邊的夕陽

好久沒有好好休息了，

過去的一年，假日都在TM

玩得很開心

這兩個禮拜特地去看海邊的夕陽

因為TM Div.E的關係，

我最近也開始拍照了

我的照片會說話

快樂、悲傷、難過都有

在海邊拍照時，

我拍到好多兩代、或是三代之間的互動：

大人牽著小孩的手、

小孩子和大人看著同一個方向：夕陽

小孩子專心的玩沙子，大人在安詳旁邊守著，

沒有嘮叨、吵鬧、耍脾氣、哭鬧

整個海灘就是一副很和諧「交響樂」

很舒服、很放鬆、很居家

太陽下山後，

順道去看了一下好友的四個月大的小孩，

上次，看到是滿月時候，

不知道會不會一看我就哭？

結果，一看到我，

馬上就是一個「超級開心的微笑」

好甜～

TM got talent

It’s been a while that I haven’t been to my mother club, FJU TMC.

Now, it has changed. It becomes better, and stronger!

In May 28 meeting, there was positive atmosphere running around:
Greg’s “ baseball experience in the childhood”;
Sophia’s “unique way dealing with the different cultures”;
Charoran’s “hot mother and family bond”;
Tzu Ting’s “self journey of her own identity”;
Janet’s “overcoming fear”; and
Caron’s “never give up.”

Not to mention the special theme “TM got talent.”
I have no idea that FJU TMC likes to “show off” now.
The rules are fun and educational.

There are 6 judges and 6 speakers.
After each speaker give his/her speech,
And timer report,
Any two judges give feedback,
Then,……..
Scores: from -3, -2, -1 to 1,2,3,4,5.

6 judges: Jack Tsai, Keli, Sandy, Judy, Lex, Sam.
All have different perspectives about speakers’ performance.

Later on, came the discharge and installation ceremony of FJU TMC.
When Jack asked the in-coming officers: would you take the challenge and responsibility of being the officers for FJU TMC. Each word “echoed” in my heart. Yes, challenge and responsibility!

I have learned a lot when I served as the officer for FJU and Legacy TMC.
Just a long way to go, yet,
I met lots of great TMs on the way.
They become my another families.
It’s not what I have expected.
It turned out better than I’ve expected.

It’s a journey.

找平衡

漢字構詞方式之一是用「相反的意思造字」，如：

黑白、東西、南北、上下、陰陽、多少、反正、橫豎;
對錯、冷熱、大小、長短、左右、早晚、老少、真假、濃淡、冷暖、快慢、喜怒;
開關、升降、生死、興衰、成敗、來去、進出、忘記、沒有、來往......

但是，
我找不到平衡。
不是太多、就太少！

My "I can't " box

April and early May was my best of time and worst of time. 

my "I can't" and "I can" boxes

It's hard to solve the interpersonal relationships (conflicts), at the same time , it's great to get the support from my friends. 

The things I didn't like, and the things I like, all came to me these days. I didn't know how to deal with them, and I was afraid. 

These days, I opened my "I can't" and "I can" boxes. I re-read these letters and then, I wrote some letters. I put them all back into the boxes. 

These boxes are the metaphors for me: they are the symbol of my mental space. 
There is linguistic theory: "performative speech act" indicates "the action of the sentence" is not performed yet, it will. The speaker would do it. 

For example, "I can finish my thesis in June." Now, the action of this sentence is not "performed," and now is not "June." But, I will do it. I will perform the speech act. As a linguistist-to-be, I know it's much powerful to use these sentences to drive me to reach the goals. 

Cheer up! 

Butterfly, 2010

2010  spring and summer is a special monent in my life.

I start to take photo.

I start to take the photo of butterfly.

It's really hard to take the photos of butterfly.

I can't control them, and they don't listen to me.

.......

They are beautiful. 

Their lives are short.

They are flying.

April

This one is really the first one that I take nice shot of it. I have to hold my breath, and pray: please stay, don't fly away.

May

This one is my favorite one in 2010. It's clear, and colorful. I look at this butterfly for quite some times.

June

This one is funny. I have never expected that "butterfly" would be around the corner (near my place.)

July

This "blue" butterfly is "active". It's hard to take a nice shot of it, yet, it stays there in the central part of Taiwan. (family trip)

July

This one contains the biggest amount of  butterflies that I have been taken. They stay there, kind of dance for me, for quite a long time.

July

This one is amazing, too. There are over one hundred butterflies flying around. I don't have to chase them, they are busy eating.

August

This one is taken near the pond. Raining.

Butterfly:2005, 2010

(1st) above, butterfly in 2010 April

(2nd) above, butterfly in 2005 April
I have no idea that this would be 5 years long.

The second photo about butterfly was taken in Yangmingshan in 2005 April.
That time I was still a sunny girl.
I loved nature, and I spent most of my leisure time in the mountain.
I was not a material girl.

While, everything changed in 2006 May.
My knees.
I couldn't go back to mountain.
I didn't want to take photo any more.

Now, 2010 April, I took some nice photo of butterfly.
The first photo about butterfly...................
The butterfly was beautiful.

I was about to cry.
It's been 5 years.

I may need to get my knees better so that I can go back to mountain to take more photos.

I have to.

Competent Leader?

This is my second year in TM, and this CL certificate really means a lot to me.

The true meaning of getting the CC and CL in the second year of joining TM,

is to use these skills to change my life, my attitude, and everything.

I almost cried when I finished my last CL requirement in Mar 29.

That's something for me.

I need to use these skills to fix my problem.

That's true CC and CL.

Everyday live practice is much more important.

Below is my CL project matrix record:
Project #
　
Date
Clubs (FJU TMC,Linkou TMC, Legend TMC, Legacy TMC,LHU TMC, NCU TMC )
1
Listening and Leadership
2009/12/5
2
Critical Thinking
2009/8/25
3
Giving Feedback
2009/10/21
4
Time Management
2009/10/18
5
Planning and Implementation
2009/12/5
6
Organizing and Delegating
2009/5/22
7
Developing Your Facilitation Skills
2009/9/5
8
Motivating People
2010/3/29
9
Mentoring
2009/1/5
10
Team Building
2010/3/26

I may have opened my "I can't" box

[sign]

I may have opened my "I can't box" again.

These days were not easy for me.

Though I lived with my knees, sometimes, they still talked to me:

"No, Sandy. You can't go to Taichung to see the Spring Conference.

No, you can't go to ......."

I was kind of forget when was the last time I had to give up something because of my knees.

Recently, my knees were better, and I got good friends to help me.

Plus, I was really busy.

When I started to take photo recently, I recalled my life "the normal one."

I did want to go back to my life.

The reason that catch me to FJU, would be also the reason for me to leave FJU.

Thesis.

I shouldn't be distracted.

I love TM, but, I start to look at the disadvantages of it.

My belief toward it "changed," especially with Distinguished Club Program.

I don't want to pretend it's my duty, I don't like it.

Just this time, so hard to take it.

That's why I open my "I can't box"

Relief, finally

終於，

從近兩個月的忙亂，

冷靜下來，

比賽告一段落。

我的確是在測試自己的能耐，

從十月2009到三月2010，

我希望做到我想要做的事，

但真的，

短期之內做不到。

I'd like to get power from a group of people.

Then, the "you can do it box" just "come out" in the past 6 months.

I was so touched....

「毅力」，真的很難鍛鍊，

每次要放棄的時候，

我也很難過 ...........

實在是不能容許自己，

每次都走到90分的地方，

還看不到終點時，

就.....................受不了

放棄了.........

最近，

我放在 "I can't "box的信，

已經越來越少了。

啊～現在是安靜的星期一午餐時間，

等一下要開始趕報告了。

加油！Sandy

My Chinese New Year: my grandfather

I seldom went back to Nantou to see my 92-years-old grand father.
Just 2 or 3 times per year.

This Chinese New Year, we spent 3 days with him.

I felt sad for him.

Aging effected his life tremendously, hearing, chewing (teeth), heart, stomach, etc.
My grandfather couldn't do something.

Yet, he could do some other things I couldn't:
He lived a simple life; he lived in a house; he enjoyed the fresh air, and etc.

I knew what I do right now would influence my lives in the future:
life style, job, health condition, spouse, kids, and etc.

The weather was becoming cold when I was back to Taipei.
Sure, my knees were “kind of stiff.”

………………………..

I can't feel sad for myself.

I need to be responsible for what I have done in the past; I have to be responsible for myself in the future.

I need to get my mater thesis done by June, 2010, and get my knees better this year.

「沒電的」一月生活

咳～

一月還沒結束，
我就已經有「沒力」的感覺

休息的這一個禮拜，
那種「在心裡的累」的感覺，
還是揮之不去，

我突然覺得，
前半年，
真的是「忙、亂」

我玩得很開心
但是，
也會想「躲起來」

我11月才對自己說
「I need a break, not to break a relationship」

結果，
現在，
又對小事發脾氣

..............................

Sorry,sorry

這禮拜回家，
去看了阿姨和他們一家人，

Oh my god,
我好朋友，
居然，
快生了
.........................

complicated feelings

開心的珊蒂，妳給我回來

太累就可以亂發脾氣嗎？

I have felt "dizzy" for couple of days.
It last from Jan 14 to Jan 19,2010.


I was extremely worried that I might just come back the time “I have to lie in bed for 3 weeks, and everything is going to ‘suspended.’ Just like Dec 2008 to Jan 2009. ”

Luckily, now I am OK.